just seconds ago I let Tony, my dog out. He was barking and wanting to be let out because his friend, a female dog was there. Tony sprinted to gate as soon as he heard the door locks opening and went right to his friend. They played together for a while. Ran around, sniffed about and pissed on things; dog stuff. He was happy, his friend was too, their tails kept waggling.
At that moment, I smiled. I felt a moment of happiness - something I haven't felt since..., y'know? I felt it is an achievable goal and not farfetched at all.
But my thoughts lingered for a bit too long because I saw his friend leave. She went to an area where Tony can't go. She started playing and running around with other dogs. Tony stood there and watched.
I felt something again. This time a parallel to my life. Did I really see myself in a dog? Have I become an animal or animals have become more emotional? Could be that I can now see and feel emotions and have my life to draw parallels from. Or could be that I cling to anything that makes me feel.
But the reality, as much as I hope it be poetic, is that my mind just filled in the blanks and drew conclusions. I do not think the way a dog does, nor do I feel that way. Instead, my mind put me as Tony and imagined the life as is. Sad.
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